SHOUT MY HEART OUT

     I don't know what I did wrong. Was it something I said? Was it something I do? It's just that I noticed it everyday that I'm the one being attacked. Angriness is falling on my head. It's like I'm not doing right to everyone. Everything I do and say is wrong, all wrong. Am I not blessed to be a normal person? I just want to live a normal life but no one lets me. I just want to be happy. Is that really hard to give? What more can someone want from me? I think life is being unfair. Do people have patience? Does anyone even understand me? Am I worth living for? I'm just a person. I'm not perfect. I'm just a human living in this world. This world that is full of hatred. Sometimes I want to cry, shout and just run away. Never look back. I wanna be free. Free from sadness, free from perfection, free from hatred. I wanna be free from everything. If only I can do things right. Why am I always wrong? Am I really a bad person? My friends, others, my family might see me smiling outside, but inside I deeply cry. My heart tore like it's hurting. I fake a sweet smile so they won't see my sadness. When will I get out of this darkness? I want to get out. I don't want to be like this anymore. I want to be happy today, the next day, everyday, FOREVER. I wish someone will love me, care for me, understand me and accept me. I wish I can be strong and can handle what life will bring. Now that I'm growing. I want to be a responsible person. And I can be, right? If I could show everyone that I can do it. Even if I will do it step-by-step. I hope they will notice and see me as a different person. A person that they can be comfortable to be with, a person they can rely on, a person that they can understand, a person who lives freely, a person that is happy before and after.